Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Day 4 - "Eve of Losing..."

The celebration of a successful DAP Appointment was short lived when we found out the local region was still giving priority to a Ukrainian Family willing to foster Willow. Tomorrow, we find out for certain whether the family is willing to release their commitment. It does not look good. I spoke to two key members of the adoption team and neither sound optimistic. This isn't simply a set-back or delay....THIS is catastrophic. This is the "Eve of Losing Willow". It may seem premature to call it that but regardless of tomorrows outcome, good or bad.....that is for tomorrow. Today will always feel like the day before we lost Willow. Adoption in Ukraine is not for the weak. It is a fast process with a dysfunctional system. But when children are at stake and your family is split up and every day costs emotionally and financially there is no time to pause. So you must make difficult decisions in your hour of grieving. You have back up plans and discussions to be sure you and your spouse are on the "same page". All while trying to grasp the terrifying realization that in 24 hours you will have no choice but to accept the horrible reality that you have lost a child you spent months fighting for and falling in love with. You look at all of the possibilities. You discuss your options and come up with a plan. Then you say goodnight, and pray that tomorrow this nightmare will go away and your sweet baby will be there in your arms.





2 comments:

  1. Praying fervently! Foster will never replace FAMILY. Lifting you, your husband, the govt officials in region, and all aching hearts up in prayer!

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  2. Praying for you and your family, and that you can get Willow home.

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